Nerves

Bear with me as I sort out my nerves.
This is what April 8-May 5 looks like for me...

Venice-Florence-Rome with Joyce and her friends, potential Berlin with Emily, English countryside & London with my family, Madrid with Alana, Barcelona with Alana and Annie, Paris with Joyce and Danny.

I'm coming to terms with the intense amount of traveling I'll have to be doing, how few clothes I'll be able to bring with me (thanks budget airlines), how much money I'm going to be spending, how the hell I'm going to survive, how carefully I need to plan out all the details of this, and just how freaking excited I am to go. And I'm TERRIFIED! And what's more, after this month is up, it'll only be six weeks in Norwich and that's it. When you split it up like that I feel like I haven't got a lot of time left here. My last three months are going to sliiiiide right by. I can't wrap my head around it.

Oh, and no big deal or anything but I'm going to Scotland this weekend to visit my best friend since second grade. We used to get excited when our parents let us take the bus alone to the mall together, and now we're meeting up in another country.

At our age, everyone's at different levels of independence. And as always, everyone has different comfort levels. So maybe the amount of hype is over the top, but for me, this might be the craziest thing I've ever done. For me, this is ridiculous. I need to take these few minutes to really, fully, totally appreciate this. I am so, so lucky. This is ridiculous!!!

xxx